Phoned mum earlier, I’m full of a cold again for the second time in 4 weeks after two people in a month surprised me with a hug.
“Can I give you a suggestion?” She asked and then without waiting said “have you thought about trying to boost your immune system?” I told her I’m doing everything that’s suggested and she said “so why’s your immune system so bad?” And distilled all the reasons down to “I’ve got PTSD and the stress part lowers your immune system” she seemed happy with that

Didn’t tell her the reason for the cPTSD or that her chain smoking in the car when I was a kid and not letting me wind the windows down was the main cause. But I didn’t end up with her saying deliberately hurtful stuff and slamming the phone down either, so it feels like a win on points.

Oof, but yeah, I know what you mean by the points.

*Side eyes own relationship with mother

Love & hugs x

i’m so glad the work I’m doing with my therapist has let me accept that I can’t change her and just need to create distance. That’s made these interactions a lot less frequent

I'd created a lot of distance, but recent events have closed that gap again.
I really need a therapist!